I am so excited that 21 Secrets 2014 has started! There are so many workshops I want to take and so much I want to explore and learn and, this is important, so many people I want to get to know. 21 Secrets is really an exciting community with wonderful teachers (thank you Connie Hozvicka!), a world wide bunch of people connected by art. A friendly Art Squad :)
I started out with Lisa Cheney´s workshop "The Savage Mirror". I watched all the videos and was both inspired and a bit terrified. I have only drawn about four or five faces ever, and now the assignment was to draw a self portrait. It was an exciting trip, to put me outside myself (you will have to excuse my bad English) and look into a mirror and draw the stranger staring back at me. It really felt like it wasn't me at all.
I've decided to go all in and let you see every step to the final result. You can never imagine what a strange feeling it is to see myself in the final picture. I didn't think that I would ever draw a self portrait and this is acutally looking like me! A bit anyway. I don't have such sad eyes, but the nose, the mouth, the shape of the face and the hair is me.
When I looked into the mirror, I focused on my mouth and that was what my journal spread should be about. When writing the text for ten minutes, I wrote a different story, but exactly what Lisa said would happen, happened. I found the meaning. The last few minutes my text was all about what I say, how I can bring joy with what my mouth says, how I can hurt people by saying the wrong things. So, I decided to cover my whole text with paint. Then I drew a big mouth and wrote a text about what I say and what I don't want to say and how I feel when saying the wrong or right things.
This process really made me think about the importance my mouth has and that I sometimes have to think before I speak. I wrote everything in Swedish because it feels closer to myself even though it's much easier to write in English to keep a distance to the signification of the words. Maybe that is not so obvious for English speaking people, but at least for me, it's much easier to say "I love you" or "I hate you" instead of "Jag älskar dig" and "Jag hatar dig". The words get closer when they are said in my own language and in this process I had to keep it close.
I am happy with the result and more importantly, I am so happy for Lisa's class and her wonderful way of inspiring. Thank you Lisa, you rock! Love!